10/10/2020 0 Comments ChaosMy life is beyond chaotic. If I'm being honest, I have no idea what I'm doing. I wasn't raised to be independent, I wasn't raised to live out on my own. Now, I'm out in the world, with literally no idea how to really survive in it, with not much help, my critical thought and logic has died, and I'm running strictly on emotions at this point. Not only that, I've come to realize that I need to be around family. Being separated from family, even if they were abusive, is too much for me. I need family. I just can't be on my own.
I'm planning on quitting my job tomorrow. I don't have another job lined up. I just know I need to leave this one. God has been telling me for awhile to do so, and now my boss is getting abusive towards me. So, I'm really hoping and praying that God provides a new job really soon. But, honestly, I often wonder if it's really God I'm hearing, or just my own thoughts. If it's just my emotions speaking to me or not. I don't know anymore. Anyway, that's really all I got, I just needed to vent. I'm honestly losing my hope. My mental health is on the decline, I'm losing self-esteem, becoming more depressed, more stressed, etc. My life is a mess. There are no good solutions. It feels as if my life is headed right off a cliff in all honesty.
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