7/2/2020 0 Comments An Update On My Spiritual WalkEver since I started transitioning, my faith has grown greatly, I never knew I could have such a relationship with God. That said, I have also come to realize that I really don't know what I actually believe about, well, just about anything in the Bible. It's almost as if I'm reading the Bible through new eyes. I don't really understand anything, how I used to interpret many of these scriptures are either wiped from my mind or seem irrelevant (but mostly wiped from my mind, like, seriously, there are so many passages of scripture that I studied before transitioning, and I legit have no idea what conclusions I came up with). It's like I'm starting from scratch. Like, it kinda feels like I'm a baby Christian in all honesty. It feels new to me, like I'm starting on a journey, to understand and learn something I've never experienced before, which just makes my current situation of being stuck at a rather hateful church worse, but that's besides the point. I guess I've come to realize I need guidance in figuring this stuff out. Another urge I've really felt since starting transition is the urge to get baptized. I've never been publicly baptized, and I've come to realize that I want to. I never really wanted that before. Of course, I've come to recognize that I'm quite a long ways off from that, as in, if it happens, I will be waiting a long time, but, it's something I actually want to do for the first time. For the first time I want actually want to talk to God. I up until I started transitioning, in all honesty, viewed it as the mandatory thing you have to do when you want a blessing, praise Him when something good happens, or that thing to check off your list once a day, etc. Since I started transitioning, I don't view it that way anymore, I've started viewing it as, well, me straight up talking to God, and it's something I want to do. It's weird, but a good kind of weird. That, and I want to be around other believers for the first time in my life. I kind of in all honesty, didn't want to be around other Christians for most of my life, because of the hatred and mistreatment received from the church. I don't have those fears (at least too much) now. Sorry, just rambling on now, but I guess these are just all new thoughts, feelings, and experiences, so I'm still like just working through them for the very first time. I'm actually growing as a person for once, in many different ways, especially spiritually.
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AuthorHi! I'm Anna, a currently transitioning transgender woman! I started my blog "Ramblings of a Trans Woman" as therapy for gender and identity issues and abuse from my parents and church. Hopefully, someone else out there can get something from this. If you want to talk, just get in contact with me, there's plenty of ways how and we'll discuss the best way to talk! Archives
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